I am cheating today and combining day 19 and day 20 into a blog post. One because not much happened on day 19 and two because I have been too busy to make it to any vlogs.
After two visits to Bare Bones Boxing it is apparent that it is beneficial to be in an environment with group energy and professional trainers. The collective environment and the pre planned routine allows you to become engrossed in the experience in a way that I personally cannot achieve on my own. It is not about competing with other people in the room. It is about feeding off the collective effort of individuals trying to better themselves.
It also gives you an opportunity to observe people who are stronger and faster than you currently are. I was watching a boxer there today and I was inspired. He had clearly been there for hours already. He was wearing a jacket and sweatpants despite the fact that it was on the warmer side of cool. He was sweating and using some kind of a speed bag when I got there. He joined us for the 60 minute class and then went right back to the speed bags when it was done. He would probably be there for hours and was clearly committed to the sport. The last time I was that committed to something I was about 10 or 11 and I was horseback riding. I don’t know what I have in my life right now that I want to be that committed to. I don’t know what I would want to do, not that I could afford anything. I have done yoga and enjoy it but it is still something I must will myself to do not something I want to do inherently. I like the gym I am at but I don’t need boxing to become my life.
People who become really good at something do it for hours. They call it their addiction. Right now the only thing I am addicted to is making myself better, stronger, faster, more agile. I know I want to dedicate my new body to something though when I am ready.
I have always been inherently drawn to martial arts and I think I would be better at it now than I was when I first tried. I don’t know that it is what I want to pick back up though. I know there are even art forms I could do like Wushu that are more about performance than fighting. The martial arts world is inherently masculine and I am not sure I want that again. I think dance would actually be a more useful skill at this point in my life. Dance is not inherent to me the way martial arts is and I have never done anything like it before. It is feminine and expressive and open. It is still strong and powerful but in a different way than martial arts.
At the moment it is still more important to me to improve my body so I will continue to mull over this thought. I am still sure that the road will reveal itself at the right time.